Speaking from Ashton Deroy’s point of view only. Like Ashton Deroy’s Writer Page on Facebook.
I repeat, “please don’t compare my world views to your trip on LSD! Just do me that favor.”
I value highly the pursuit of an equal society with values of justice and dignity with cultural plurality I have read books by Democrats, Socialists, Utilitarians. I have learned about the origins of North American Social Reform culture out of New Harmony Indiana. I have praised Tommy Douglas for his work on human rights and the creation of Socialized healthcare. There is a real cultural collective of literature, historical figures, and Philosophical/Economic readings.
When you do what this person did?
Reducing the sum of morality & a values-based conversation with real intellectual values in to “When I took acid I realized what I already knew, we’re all just creatures of earthborn under the sky and will die under the sky.”I lost a great deal of respect for this person. Of all the profound conversations I would hope to have with a fellow intellectual and fellow working-class person. This was not in line with those types of conversations I would hope to be having. Doy I am an atheist too! I just still believe in deterministic principles for guiding one’s actions.
Telling it like it is
You can be an atheist and then still be a nihilist and know that I will call that out as a bad thing. Atheism is not the sum total value of our individual philosophies. If you don’t have the meaning you find it through reading and deep introspection. As a friend, you became someone I view as someone who gets lost in sloppy poorly thought out meaningless relationships with men who have drug issues.
As a person, you have become paranoid (obviously these drugs don’t agree with you and are probably illegal. I am not a police officer) As a student you’ve been reduced to nothing but a pointless party person who won’t buckle down & focus. Acid & LSD was considered a threat to cultural sanity for a reason. People during use feel like they have been enlightened. People from every faith and atheism thing they get it all figured out just from an intense trip! You haven’t woke my friends.
“LSD influences serotonin receptors in the brain. Serotonin is a neurotransmitter that plays a role in every part of your body, from your mood and emotions to your motor skills and body temperature. According to a 2016 study, LSD also causes changes in the brain’s blood flow and electrical activity.” Google
( This just in you are playing dangerous games with your mental health by taking acid and not consulting a physician about medicinal options or even negative health effects.)
Why I think her ex left her after 4 years based on an outsider observation? I think he lost respect for her. First of all, she is an atheist like me but let us face facts that on its own is a bleak philosophy. She was materialistic. From the prior conversations, she stated she didn’t believe his passion for world history would translate into a wealth payable skill. She was passionless and filled with deeply flawed values that go beyond practical and into bleak. The tide of her impulses just steer her to prospects of marrying for wealth, pushing desperately non-consensual commitment & her unaddressed preference for interdependence in her social culture means she is miserable by the way she steers herself. (Quite frankly I am comfortable labeling someone a gold digger in the face of the belligerent indifference to pursuits of passion in relation to education.)
Friendship Summary: This relationship was exhausting and I honestly fear her inability to grow will surpass my ability to forgive our culture clash. As a gay man & Socialist, I value being a confidant to many friends who feel like my sisters. As an autistic person who became higher functioning, I scoff at her lacking determinism to become smarter, her lacking passion for her work & inability to see why she might be offputting to men who crave emotional connections. She is one of the least self-actualized people I have ever met. She is reducing herself to a party girl wearing an “intellectual” mask. She is heartless wearing a mask of compassion & lastly she is passionless posing as a passionate person the result is total and completely fraudulent behavior, even if not a case of legal misrepresentation. You felt ripped off as a friend hoping for a deeper interpersonal relationship.
“I feel exhausted by this but it was worth journalling.”