Leadership exercise Democratic Experiment and what it says about my psychology.

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How a Socialist thinks? 

If I had to sum up my experience of my Democratic Simulation in 2 descriptions.  1. I display the traits of a niceness tyrant & somehow an opportunist for material gains. I usually treat people with respect and I damn well demand I am treated with respect. I am also geared towards impulsive decision making at times especially with material motivators. I am the person who watched their aunt’s dog in exchange for food in North York. I am not shy about that motivation. She was a damn good cook.

  1. I have to relax up a bit on impulsive decision making – I have a personality where a great deal of decisions is driven more by impulse. I am working on it but it is there. This would also be a cliche about an addict with autism. I am impulsive…Doy… Impulses aren’t always forgiven as impulses. That obviously is clear.
  2. Niceness tyrant – This is my most alarming trait. I am a Niceness tyrant… A niceness tyrant thinks they can get away with just about anything so long as it achieves the common good. This doesn’t make helping people immoral. It makes helping people as apart of a larger dictated plan immoral. This comes from being trained in Sales, Customer service & Customer service Excellence.  It is important to fight but I should strive to fight fair.
  3. Morally flexibile for material gains – Again I talk about living wage all the time on on here. It is easy to see that I have wealth motivations. It is also easy to see. I don’t think I will achieve wealth by the means of any excess talents. Just by the means of Sales & Marketing abilities.  My gains were achieved primarily by utilizing my my Communications background. Not by any special abilities in the game. I have to be careful never to accept bribes and to know my loyalties and stage my own trasnparrency.
  4. I love freedom and I hate society’s rejection of healthy interdependence – I say all the time in feminism. Our obsessive fixation on Independence is absurd. We achieve wealth together. We achieve success together. Ultimately it makes more sense to be a team than Individuals. That is the point of Collectivized thinking.” I am not saying I desire to be a culture to reject outsiders. I would like to work on changing that a lot actually. Rather I am saying that if we went about love and belonging the right ways in our Economic organization. We wouldn’t see so many burn outs. We have to remember that people are in this thing called life to be around the people they love. Not live at the job. That is my idea, not my dictation.”

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I’ve thought about this. It is a bit insane with we don’t as a community has a unified approach to Suicide Prevention yet. I have observed people trying the “If you commit Suicide I will get really mad.” approach, I know this isn’t an effective approach. Suicidal ideation is a healthcare emergency much like CPR is a healthcare emergency skill for basic life-saving.

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If we want to Sustain our community longer. We have to get on the same page about Suicide. I paid $20 for this course and with it at least I have a fighting chance at making a difference for myself and others. We need to change our culture around suicide to be healthier and more sustainable for our communities. If you are reading this there is something you can do to make a difference in our Social Culture.

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Why I became a Socialist through Business classes?

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I wish to stumble into my beliefs of Liberal Socialism was a phase. That way it could be just a mindset I could quit. I could leave it and the planet would be fine, median incomes wouldn’t be down and the neighboring Head of State wouldn’t be a dictator. Could you imagine such a world? 😀 “That is the most Utopic thinking you will get from me today.” :/ 

This may be surprising to people. I actually don’t think Business & Finance people are the fascist capitalists’ people think. You have a hard time learning about an unsustainable investment, financial, and environmental economy. Then pretending everything is alright with some Grant Cardone style motivational Capitalism. Not a hater, I bought a book of his. I just love using him in my jokes because the guy is so damn cheesy. “I vote my business.” Grant Cardone. Got to love self-help idiots. When we want answers? They give us silly.

The problem is I don’t want to throw out the system of Capitalism. Not at all. I want to throw out the uncompromising stupidity related to the political and philosophical ideologies related to capitalism. That is what is ruining the execution of the system in the proper manner. We have character problems and problems in how we view the environment. We don’t have a Private Property problem. We don’t need to screw up agriculture. We need to fix it. Listen I wouldn’t let a Communist screw up my access to food & water. I won’t let an oil-loving Capitalist do it either!

Anyways I am not a Capitalist. I am a Liberal Socialist. I don’t have time for grandiose Business bull****. As for strong centralized authoritarian governments like in Communism? I don’t think so Kingston Ontario! I don’t want to go through this rampant disease (Coronavirus) again because some idiot doesn’t know to use Bats in their stupid traditional medicine market. Or something environmentally stupid along those lines! Again I don’t care if you are a Capitalist or a Communist. Neglecting our environment is insane! Mixing the Social Concerns of Socialism with the innovative Capitalist values of Liberalism makes sense. It is a compromise that works.

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“Oh, this is the bad place.” Describing my personal hell. Discussing addiction.

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Here is a challenge. Describe your personal hell in 200 words. Write it as an incentive to improve your life. What does hell look like for you? Email Ashtonderoy@gmail.com 

What would my personal hell look like? What are the features? What will tempt me to stay? How will I force myself to leave?

Features: My personal hell is one I describe with unhinged intoxication, smoke and alcohol & drugs everywhere. A total cultural ghetto.  There is no intellectual discussion, no exercise, and no real attempts at bettering one’s self.

Temptations to stay: The temptations to stay are based on some of the family states of mind and rituals.  My family has bleak and nihilistic opinions that I believe will re-buried me in addiction down the line. Imagine how hard it is to depart from your family culture and not only that but to demand a better and more progressive family culture!

How I will find my way out to a better life? For me, I had to find traditions and identity that appealed to me. For me when this is done? I will live in the tradition and culture of the intellectuals of left & socialist leanings.

Quote worth learning: 

“I’m just not a ‘new experience’ kind of guy. My comfort zone is basically like, that chair, and honestly? The arms are a little sharp.” – Chidi Anagonye, The Good Place 4×05

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Bitch to me if needed, I am an ethical friend.

Bitch to me if needed

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This post will be censored with more ethical language in a bit*** . I do want it to break through though that I take Civility, mental health, and #SuicideAwareness seriously.

Since completing a Business Diploma while looking at Social & Sustainability issues. Then getting trained in CannSell and SmartServe as well as Suicide Prevention. I now believe I can be an ethical friend for someone.

So if you want to talk about mental health. We can talk. Just know I will behave ethically in Conversation. To some people this a calming thing. To have a friend behave a moral guide. I have had multiple moral guides as friends. I do believe it is something we can do for each other that helps to make the world a better place. 

Also, shout out to my Grandma. I think mental health dialogues were an idea I got from my Grandma Pat. Anyways I find moral friends to be a calming concept. I always mention my love for some of the Mormon culture in my family. I do think the Mormon religious culture was where I developed some of my Community & moral values. Even if some of it evolved with my academic life. 

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If I give up the brain of addiction. I must give up Nihilism.

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People might wonder in the autism community if I will get past my issues of addiction and depression. I know my pathway out. If I am to give up addiction I must give up Nihilism. When one is an addict? They tend to reduce their life and the sum total of morality into a meaningless construct. (It is important to note my path to sobriety was a political & cultural study. Not a religious experience. Hence why I chose Liberal Socialism as a defining religion eventually)

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It is not. Morality is not meaningless. Our environment is not meaningless, especially in relation to potential mass extinction and the traditions of Social Democracy & Liberal Democracy are not meaningless. Even if we identify as atheists out of some traumatic experience we should still live our life with a purpose, passion, and some discipline.

When I was a Nihilist? I learned some of my attitudes had an impact on my family culture. If you are a Stoner who doesn’t care about anything. You might have a sibling become a stoner who doesn’t care about anything. That is an eye-opening experience. Your family might reflect your attitudes with constant socially negative commentary on race, ability & various World Views.

(I have mentioned despite my Dad being a typical Canadian in his views. We do share a prejudice to Communism both in literature and history considerations.) 

Looking morally inward with questions:

  • What impact do I have on moral culture?
  • What do people think my values are?
  • What are the traditions I want to honor and the ones I want to leave behind?

 

Please don’t compare my world views to your trip on LSD! Just do me that favor.

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I repeat, “please don’t compare my world views to your trip on LSD! Just do me that favor.”

I value highly the pursuit of an equal society with values of justice and dignity with cultural plurality I have read books by Democrats, Socialists, Utilitarians. I have learned about the origins of North American Social Reform culture out of New Harmony Indiana. I have praised Tommy Douglas for his work on human rights and the creation of Socialized healthcare. There is a real cultural collective of literature, historical figures, and Philosophical/Economic readings.

When you do what this person did? 

Reducing the sum of morality & a values-based conversation with real intellectual values in to “When I took acid I realized what I already knew, we’re all just creatures of earthborn under the sky and will die under the sky.”I lost a great deal of respect for this person. Of all the profound conversations I would hope to have with a fellow intellectual and fellow working-class person.  This was not in line with those types of conversations I would hope to be having. Doy I am an atheist too! I just still believe in deterministic  principles for guiding one’s actions.

Telling it like it is 

You can be an atheist and then still be a nihilist and know that I will call that out as a bad thing. Atheism is not the sum total value of our individual philosophies. If you don’t have the meaning you find it through reading and deep introspection. As a friend, you became someone I view as someone who gets lost in sloppy poorly thought out meaningless relationships with men who have drug issues.

As a person, you have become paranoid (obviously these drugs don’t agree with you and are probably illegal. I am not a police officer) As a student you’ve been reduced to nothing but a pointless party person who won’t buckle down & focus. Acid & LSD was considered a threat to cultural sanity for a reason. People during use feel like they have been enlightened. People from every faith and atheism thing they get it all figured out just from an intense trip! You haven’t woke my friends.

Acid Reader

LSD influences serotonin receptors in the brain. Serotonin is a neurotransmitter that plays a role in every part of your body, from your mood and emotions to your motor skills and body temperature. According to a 2016 study, LSD also causes changes in the brain’s blood flow and electrical activity.” Google 

( This just in you are playing dangerous games with your mental health by taking acid and not consulting a physician about medicinal options or even negative health effects.)

Why I think her ex left her after 4 years based on an outsider observation? I think he lost respect for her. First of all, she is an atheist like me but let us face facts that on its own is a bleak philosophy. She was materialistic. From the prior conversations, she stated she didn’t believe his passion for world history would translate into a wealth payable skill. She was passionless and filled with deeply flawed values that go beyond practical and into bleak. The tide of her impulses just steer her to prospects of marrying for wealth, pushing desperately non-consensual commitment & her unaddressed preference for interdependence in her social culture means she is miserable by the way she steers herself. (Quite frankly I am comfortable labeling someone a gold digger in the face of the belligerent indifference to pursuits of passion in relation to education.)

Friendship Summary: This relationship was exhausting and I honestly fear her inability to grow will surpass my ability to forgive our culture clash. As a gay man & Socialist, I value being a confidant to many friends who feel like my sisters. As an autistic person who became higher functioning, I scoff at her lacking determinism to become smarter, her lacking passion for her work & inability to see why she might be offputting to men who crave emotional connections. She is one of the least self-actualized people I have ever met. She is reducing herself to a party girl wearing an “intellectual” mask. She is heartless wearing a mask of compassion & lastly she is passionless posing as a passionate person the result is total and completely fraudulent behavior, even if not a case of legal misrepresentation. You felt ripped off as a friend hoping for a deeper interpersonal relationship.

“I feel exhausted by this but it was worth journalling.”